yep..its all me
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Saturday, November 24, 2007
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Im writing you to tell you im sorry. Im sorry that we dont spend as much time together as we used to. I've taken advantage you. I only visit you on my time, and i no longer think of you as much as i used to. I think its best if u make up ur mind .. quit changing your mind ..i know your going through stuff && i really help u but i dont think u will let me thats alright i understand last night was a rough night...everything will be alright babe dont worry im here to talk if u want .. After saying goodbye to Corey at like 10pm i drove home... and crawled into bed... i was so incredibly tired... but for some odd reason i just couldnt fall asleep... so after hours of fiddling with my cell phone&& on my computer ... and past the time of ipod listening... and the painting my nails... watching t.v. i decided that i would lay down in my bed, close my eyes and hope for the best... at first it was a little overwelming, there were so meny thoughts racing through my head. Good ones, bad ones... i had decisions to make, things to do... but after laying there for about a half hour they started to fade away... I felt like God was telling me woah anna, you need to chill out and think... now the subject that last came into my head is wayyy to confusing to talk about.. but it involves two other people besides me, so some people know what im talking about, at first when i thought about it i was really bummed out, this topic is sooo not fun... i dont want to take the easy way out, i really dont, but if thats what needs to happen it probably will... sadly enough. but you know me, how my brain wonders, and i bounce from subject to subject like mad. I came to and idea. What if, once you born, god gave a name. A name of another person, that was already born, or yet to be born. That person got your name too, and that person was the one that you were supposed to spend the rest of you life with. You grew up knowing that person, god made you compatible, you loved the same things, shared the same intrests, and you knew that they were the one... there would be no cheating, no question, there wouldnt be another girl, or "chemistry" with someone else. There wouldnt be tha best friend gone bad that wants your guy. There would be no abuse, it would be PERFECT. but the world isnt like that. right now we're in a time of trial and error. Who knows the person your dating now could be your husband, or someone just to share memories with at highschool reunions, or you may never see them again. i wish things wernt complicated, but they are. Im willing to try, to try and make it through this rough time, are you?
xoxo - brianne
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