yep..its all me
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
i'm guessing this is supposed to be about me even tho its on my profile but w/e ummm lets see..........
why im different b/c everyone is the same
my name is brianne or bri if ur that special and i am not like everyone else. a lot of people call me a nerd, geek, dork, and all of those other names. haha i love it. i am me. i will never change ..it may seem like im conceited but im not if u get to know me u will see wats up hmm Don't really care what people think of me. If you don't like me, keep muh name outcha mouth! Almost 80% of the time I'm nice. Even if I don't like you. I'm just a nice person. I usually keep to myself with my problems because I don't want anyone else's sympathy. This is my life. I live it the way I want to. And at the end of the day, I'm happy with it & who I am!
Monday, February 25, 2008
And you might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics,
Cause I don't want you to know where I am.
Cause then you'll see my heart in
the saddest state its ever been.
And this is no place to try and live my life.
I heard the reverberating footsteps,
Syncing up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless
I got myself together, I would
watch me fall apart.
control.
make me happy ?
see what i see touch the stars
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Damn i hate not having u here
its crazy , i got so many feelings for u
I love how your my baby
i love how u make are fights better b/c u say something funny
i love how ur so LAME
I love ur kind and thoughtfull ways (even when your mad)
I love u today as i have from the start
I ♥ u JN
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Published by black_voodoo: 12:17 AM
Updated On: 2/23/2008 at 2:20 AM
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Friday, February 08, 2008
even if we ever seperated i still wana be ur friend
but if i was ur girl im commited 2 the end
breakin tht promise, should be considered a sin
i know no ones perfect but ur as Perfect as anyone can be
and if theres one thing i know its tht UR THE PERFECT ONE 4 ME
hope thts a sight tht u can see
did u jus loose ur breath
tht means u jus had a epiphany
and u knew tht u and me was a course set destiny
i should put a beat on this and change it into a song
my heart is dedicated to u, its been here all along
xoxo-brianne
Sunday, February 03, 2008
everything i wish for will never come true
forever blowing bubbles.
sunsets fade
Saturday, February 02, 2008
Dont really know what to say anymore. I dont know what im anymore. You ever have those days(well maybe longer)that every moment you feel like laughing, crying, screaming, and staying silent all at the same time?
Then, at the same time I know why and yet i dont know why i feel this way. Like as of right now I want to love You so badly but i also want to throw up just by thinking of You.
One day we'll get in the car and just drive; with the contents of our bank accounts in the trunk and nothing to look back to. No destination. One day we'll leave, and we'll never come home and we'll never get hurt again.
Not even each other. Not even ourselves.
But anywho Talking to my mom at all is very frustrating. I just don't know how to deal with a lot of negativity right now. but wats new
I need some thinking time..lol
nice updated blog right ?.........i think so.. i love the title (look for the song)
xoxo-brianne
because you're a little bit too nice,
i look a little bit like hell cause i'm a little overtired
and i'm a little overwhelmed
and you're a little bit too late
and it's a little bit too soon
and i'm a little bit too strange for somebody like you.
feel like ive known you forever
like its tru
as tru as the grass is green
and the sky is blu
as the sun is bright yellow
we can see it from a mile
we can also see the whiteness
of your beautiful smile
in love again you ask?
in love again i say
but to my own self
in love again i pray
is it for real
or goodness sake
is this just another love
that is for fake
-what you wont do for love...
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
try to leave
get sucked back in
i want to leave
say your just a friend
caught up in the moment
thought it was tru
thought i found love
thought it was you
we went our seperate ways
or so you thought
i was still in love
or so i thought
but it had to be tru
stayed on my mind
thought i would be lost
and never ever find
that one tru person
that i really love
match made in heaven
and far far above
we dont say words
but kno how each other feel
im tellin you
this shi*t is for real
but until we decide
to give it a chance
i will be stuck
in my love romance....
xoxo-brianne
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Published by black_voodoo: 9:02 PM
Updated On: 1/15/2008 at 11:06 PM
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"When its central, so essential,It has a nice ring when you laugh at my low-life opinions"
And I thought Id live forever, but now Im not so sure.
You try to tell me that Im clever,
But that wont take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.
xoxo-brianne
with Colten && partying sooo... yeah..little update
xoxo -brianne
Thursday, January 10, 2008
x]
dont care much anymore im done w/ u for the time being
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
2> you don't know how lucky you are.. you're throwing it all away and you act pathetic i don't know who you've become....
im sick of this bullshi*t
and its not just that
goodness gracious
its EVERYTHING!
No one will never find their perfect "person" or what you idealize in your mind.
Its no such thing and I am not saying just this because I am mad..
there are only two choices:
Married and bored or Single and lonely.
thats wat i've came to the conclusion of ...
xoxo-brianne
ps. i stay online b/c i want u talk to me ..if im not saying anything or u see me && i see you just say Hey
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Published by black_voodoo: 8:13 PM
Updated On: 1/8/2008 at 10:32 PM
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im confused
♥
Find nothing but faith in nothing
Want to put my tender
Heart it in a blender
Watch it spin round to a beautiful oblivion
Rendezvous then I'm through with you
survey
L A S T:
01. Last Cigarette: never.
02. Last kiss: like a month ago
03. Last Cry: don't remember.
04. Last Library Book Checked Out: kite runner?
05. Last Movie Seen In a Theater: alvin and the chipmunks.
06. Last Book: kite runner.
07. Last Cuss Word Uttered: shi*t.
08. Last Beverage Drank: milk.
09. Last Food Consumed: pasta.
10. Last time drunk: new years eve
11. Last TV Show Watched: fresh prince.
12. Last Time Showered: yesterday.
13. Last Shoes Worn: chucks.
14. Last CD played: viva la cobra.
15. Last Soda Drank: today.
16. Last Thing Written: yesterday. names.
17. Last Words Spoken: dumbass.
18. Last Annoyance: gary
19. Last Time Scolded Someone: i don't know.
20. Last Web Site Visited: the fashion spot.
21. Last Movie you watched: uh a walk 2 remember [my fav]
22. Last movie you bought: 300 and some other ones.
23. Last song you listened to: viva la white girl.
24. Last bought CD: don't remember.
25. Last person that called you: Gary
26. Last person you were thinking of: Jon
27. Last friend you made: people in class.
B O D Y:
01. Piercings: ears.
02. Tattoos: none.
03. Height: 5'1".
04. Shoe size: seven or eight.
05. Hair color: black roots and brown hair. need redying.
06. Tan or white: dark.
T R U E * O R * F A L S E :
01. You have a crush on someone: somewhat.
02. You wish you could live somewhere else: true.
03. You thought about suicide: true.
04. You believe in online dating: true
05. You want more Piercings: true.
06. You drink: true.
07. You do drugs: true
08. You smoke: false.
09. You like cleaning: false.
10. You like roller costers: true
11. You write in cursive: false.
F - O - R * O - R * A - G - A - I - N - S - T:
01. Long distance relationships?: if there willing to travel ...for
02. Teenage smoking: whatever.
03. Doing drugs: for
04. Driving drunk: against.
05. Soap operas: against.
06. Someone uses someone for his or her goodies: against.
07. Gay rights: for.
08. Current War: against.
H - A - V - E * Y - O - U :
01. Ever cried over a female/male: yeahs.
02. Ever lied to someone: yes.
03. Ever been in a fistfight: yes.
04. Ever been arrested: no.
W - H - A - T :
01. Shoes do you wear: chucks.
02. What are you scared of: lots of stuff
03. Whats your favorite flower: lillies
N - U - M - B - E - R :
01. Of times you have been deeply in love: 1
02. Of times you have had your heart broken? 5
03. Of hearts you have broken: 1
04. Of drugs taken? 1
05. Of people you consider your enemies? zero.
06. Of scars on your body? more then five.
07. Of things in your past that you regret? 5
xoxo-brianne
: ' (
:D
not alot of random today
xoxo -brianne
Saturday, January 05, 2008
Babecakes lets be RANDOM
I just feel... feel like:
-Changing everything ??
-Having everything go perfectly ?
-Sharing my newly updated secrets with u ?
- i'll leave that up to u to fill out this one
-making u come back to me ???
<3 [nope]
have u ever felt rushed ? like theres no room to breathe
My tears are steady falling, I can't stop make em' stop.
I keep falling deeper baby.
I ain't been the same since ya left with my heart.
One minute it was good the next it was bad.
I wonder what happened to what we had.
Why does it seem like u don't give a damn about me anymore? && thanks for not listening 2 me u totally helped me out when i needed to tell u all the shi*t thats been going on w/ me and wats been up
damn i must be trippin ? ---- > : ' (
must of my blog titles are song titles just thought id let u know [this in my fav]
xoxo- brianne
Randomness here and there
Wish I could see through
See deep into you
And know what you're thinking now
You play it so cool
Something id thought id bring up
I wish I could just break this psychological barrier... Tear it down in a blaze of beauty and trauma. Time's set still always waiting for them to make the first move, but is it true or just an act of friendliness? "Please just trust me.", the heart screams. "But what if it all comes crashing down...", the mind shoots back...
But I guess that is the definition of being human, were not perfect. Were not all civil... were not all breathtaking. Maybe that's why I've been caged for the past 18 years, I'm trying to be something that I'm not. Shielding myself from everything that could go wrong. Just play the game son...
Everything is just so high upon itself right now... I just feel... feel like:
-Changing everything
-Having everything go perfectly
-Sharing wildest dreams with a stranger and contently listening...
-Staring at the stars admiring the vast probabilities that brought this all here, and then the probabilities that brought me to that thought.
-Altering the course of someone's life in a mere instant.
My whole life it repeats over and over, what incentive can I possibly have for things to change in the future?
xoxo- brianne
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Published by black_voodoo: 12:09 AM
Updated On: 1/4/2008 at 2:45 AM
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Wednesday, January 02, 2008
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
clean slate... a new start.. start over....
x
Well maybe i should ?
Maybe i should learn how to be alone and not go insane
stop trying to find someone who completely understands me because I will just be dissapointed with the results
xoxo -brianne
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Published by black_voodoo: 10:58 PM
Updated On: 1/4/2008 at 12:39 AM
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Wednesday, January 02, 2008
You know, i could easily sulk here in my own dispair and relish what we had. i could spite you and assault you with every fiber of my body. i could cry until my tearducts shriveled up and begged for forgiveness-my migraines pounded a crack in my skull. i could waste away in bed eating stale Frango mints watching reruns of Fraiser.
yeah, i sure could.
but what would it give me? nausea and a fat ass.
do i need more of either? that would be a negative.
so, what now?
it's not like i can treat life like my TiVo. there's no going back. you did what you did, and i said what i said. my life is like a treadmill- and i'm nowhere near being ready to pull the key out in desperation
Random much?
You remind me of this maroon 5 song -Better than we Break
tired .. from life ...
fell asleep for the third day in a row on the couch ..
I hope your living a better life than mine ..
xoxo- brianne
ps. this blog is better lol
Sunday, December 30, 2007
I have only one new year's resolution just one usually i have alot && i never follow through on them
1. Find a guy that is that special guy im not asking for much actually someone that is fun loving ,knows me, can be with me thorough all of my bullshi*t ,i've been through so many messed of relationships to tell you the truth idk if i will ever find that special guy
Random much ?
btw there is this guy i used to like well im not gonna say used to but anywho i loved how he used to tell me that he walks to church in a suit and down the road all the ppl used to look at him and i used to love how we had these great conversations about nothing.. but thats something else to totally get into on another day .
:( we havent talked
1,2,3,4 left you with nothing but i want u to want some more
For your own protection, over their affection
Nobody broke your heart
You broke your own 'cos you can't finish what you start
For someone half as smart, you'd be a work of art
You put yourself apart
And I can't help you until you start
:D smile for me baby
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Published by black_voodoo: 11:01 PM
Updated On: 12/31/2007 at 3:23 AM
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Saturday, December 29, 2007
just to get your way keep screaming you'll never have anything
spare an apology
:D
Monday, December 24, 2007
mk
so you wont talk to me
what did i do?
Sunday, December 23, 2007
cannot find the words to describe how I am feeling to night i feel renewed/refreshed and I am currently missing a person
And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.
But when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself.
It is best to compose a poem, an honest longing or simple song of hope.
That is why I'm singing...
Baby don't worry cause now I got your back. And every time you feel like crying,
I'm gonna try and make you laugh.
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Published by black_voodoo: 12:08 AM
Updated On: 12/23/2007 at 2:09 AM
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Sunday, December 23, 2007
cannot find the words to describe how I am feeling to night i feel renewed/refreshed and I am currently missing a person
And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.
But when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself.
It is best to compose a poem, an honest longing or simple song of hope.
That is why I'm singing...
Baby don't worry cause now I got your back. And every time you feel like crying,
I'm gonna try and make you laugh.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
cannot find the words to describe how I am feeling to night i feel renewed/refreshed and I am currently missing a person
And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.
But when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself.
It is best to compose a poem, an honest longing or simple song of hope.
That is why I'm singing...
Baby don't worry cause now I got your back. And every time you feel like crying,
I'm gonna try and make you laugh.
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