SO MUCH sh*t STILL LIVING INSIDE
CREATING A WORLD N JUS LIVIN A LIE
SEEING THINGS, N NOT UNDERSTAND WHY
EXPECTING TO BE LOVED, SO THEN I CRY
TRYNA LET GO, DEEP FEELINGS OF MINE
THINKN UP sh*t, WORTH A DIME
TRYNA MOVE ON, BUT I DON’T EVEN LET GO
I HAVE BUT THE SITUATION STILL TRIES TO HOLD
A CREATURE THAT FORMED N GREW ICY COLD
MADE TO FEEL ANGRY, COS IT WAS LEFT ALONE
MADE TO SMILE BUT IT DOESN’T ANYMORE
CRIED ALL NIGHT, CRYING GREW OLD
TEARS DRIED OUT, BUT THE HEART HAS THE HOLE
PART OF ME IS MISSING, AND NOT FEELING WHOLE
TRYIN TO LISTEN AND MOVE AWAY
NEVER FORGETTING WHAT HE SAID TILL TODAY
THOUGHT ABOUT IT, DURIN THIS NIGHT N DAY
HOLDING BACK FROM WHAT IS FELT
TRYIN TO MAKE THINGS DISAPPEAR LIKE WIT WAT IVE DELT
CAN’T EVEN SMILE, AND THE TEARS MELT
THINKN ABOUT ALL THE MIX INSIDE, LIKE ANYTHING IVE FELT
SO ANGRY, TO EVEN REMEMBER HE HELD MY HAND
SO DISTURBED BY THE OBSESSED SELF THAT SEEMS SO GLAD
SO MANY THING SAID N DONE IN HIS BRAIN STILL CRAMMED
HEADACHES THAT FEEL SO JAMMED
LET ME GET AWAY, N JUS STAY AT MY PLACE
WALK AROUND OUTSIDE AT A SLOW STEADY PACE
THINKN FOR MILES, TILL I REACH MY FINAL GRACE
WHERE I CAN BE HAPPY, AND JUST TOUCH FAITH
ALL I NEED IS SOMEONE TO KEEP ME SMILING
SOMEONE TO KEEP ME LAUGHING
SOMEONE TO TALK TO ME, AND NEVER SEE ME CRYING
BUT NEVER SAYING ANYTHING TO INSULTING
IT’S NEVER WHAT I EXPECTED TO HEAR
THOUGH IT WAS SAID LOUD N CLEAR
NOT APPRECIATED ANYWHERE NEAR
I SLOWLY WALK AWAY, GETTING HURT IS WAT I FEAR
CAN’T LOOK IN THE EYE, COS IT’S STILL REPLAYIN INSIDE
TO NOW KNOW BETTER, AND TRY TO LEAVE IT BEHIND
NEVER EVER TALKING, THAT WAY NOTHING I SAY, IS RIGHT
WHAT CAN NOTHING DO, BUT DISTURB YOU
MAKING YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE TO
IT’S NOT MY INTENTION
BUT I GUESS, I TAUGHT AND LEARNED A LESSON
TO NEVER TRUST BUT YOURSELF, AND TO STOP MESSIN
NOTHIN I REALLY WANT, BUT TO BE HAPPY
WITH SOMEONE BESIDE ME
THAT CAN BE MY FRIEND OR MY FAMILY
JUS STOP COMIN UP TO ME WIT STUPID THINGS
WE’RE IN HIGHSCHOOL, LIFE HAS NEW MEANINGS
SO LEARN ONE THING FROM ME
LIFE IS PAST, LIL DRAMA THAT NEVER SEEMS TO CEASE
PROBLEMS THAT YOU CAN’T FIX ONLY AT SCHOOL
WHAT CAN YOU DO BUT HANDLE YOUR sh*t
BE AT SCHOOL STILL THIKN ABOUT IT A LIL BIT
SO IF ONE DAY I EVER SAY ANYTHING
IM GUNNA STOP MYSELF N WALK AWAY SLOWLY…
